Words.worth

Shallow Water

"The apple don't roll too far from the tree." "Like father like son." "History repeats itself." We have all heard these phrases repeatedly throughout our collective lifetime as apart of this creation we call humanity. However, it remains an anomaly that we still fall victim to the actions that directly result in these phrases being uttered.

Why does she continually dive head first into a pool in which she can see the bottom?

Her great-grandfather did it. Granddad did it. So did her father. Then that cycle repeated itself in the manifestation of her first serious boyfriend. She was playing a role. That role, an Oscar worthy one, was that of an overpowered, overmatched, overplayed and emotionally abused obsequious damsel.

Age 4 was the first time she saw daddy scold mommy. It shocked and scared her. It left an indelible mark on an impressionable mind. As she progressed through youth towards adulthood her frustrations with her parent's "arrangement" mounted and fueled an innate instinct to not trust men that she deemed to have good character. That is correct. She-does-not-trust-men-with-good-character.

Why should she trust them? Afterall, the supposed most influential male figure in a woman's life is her father and her seed sewer frequently neglected her cultivator. Henceforth, the notion of a male treating her like royalty is somehow wrong. It is not natural because that is not what she is accustomed to. See those four lines that have just been formed around her. They form what is referred to as a box. A box that she does not even know she is in (Ignorance- the concept of being unknowing to vital information). A box full of emotional, mental, physical and even spiritual abuse from all potential significant and insignificant others.

Today she hates her self and thinks the only way he can love her is through giving her a feeling of self-despondency. Lack of affection means he is a man. Harsh words only means he cares. Black eye defines his love. Soon she forgets why God made her. She loses her purpose and assumes his. This woman now has no self-identity because she lives only to appease the man that is inappeasable. She then awakens and realizes why her mother stayed with this same man for 40 years.

She dove in pool of shallow water.

posted by Words.worth @ 9:28 PM